- "one minute is love and suddenly it's like a battelfield"

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? yes :)
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? course
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? I can't remeber :/
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? yes
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? yes!! ahahah
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yes Chris Medina- What are words
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? my pijama
8. How often do you listen to music? very often!
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? sweats
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? I can't say it right now, but maybe, who knows?
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? social
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? yes :)
13. What about ‘R’? yes ahah
14. Can you drive a stick shift? only whit help :b
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? it depends of the subject and the people.
16. Are you going out of town soon? yes, thursday ^^
17. When was the last time you cried? can't remember
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? yes
19. If you could change your eye color, would you? yes! grey eyes *.*
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? yes :)
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. I'm overeating today u.u
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? *.*
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? yes :)
24. What are you sitting on right now? a chair? -_^
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? yes
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? who doesn't? ahah
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Nuno Silva
28. Do you get a lot of colds? barely
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? my fathers closet ahah
30. Does anyone hate you? maybe the fucking jealous, just saying ;)
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? I had some, but my momy found them ahah
32. Do you like watching scary movies? NOOOOOO!
33. Do you want your tongue pierced? I don't know. maybe not
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2008 maybe
35. Did you have a dream last night? yes, but I always forget my dreams ahah
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? yesterday
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? no, maybe in 9 or 10.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I know it :)
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I don't know
40. Did you have a good day yesterday? hangover day darlings ahah
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? nop x)
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? yes :)
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yes, motherfucker -.-
44. What’s the best part about school? the exit gate :D
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? yes
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? yes
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? sometimes, yes
48. Were you single over the last summer? yup ^^
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? completly different!
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? reading
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? no
52. Are you nice to everyone? I think so ahah
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? yes -.-
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? course... lord u.u
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? it depends.
56. Do you think you like someone?yes
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? yes
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? boys
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? yes
60. Do you hate anyone? no
61. How’s your heart? beating x)
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy? unfortunately
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? who cares?
65. Are your toenails painted pink? nop
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? no
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? are you fucking stupid? -.-
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? no
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? THE boy :)
70. How do you look right now? tired
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? yup :)
72. Can you commit to one person? yes
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? yupiii ^^
74. Have you ever felt replaced? stupid, but yes u.u
75. Did you wake up cranky? sometimes
76. Are you a jealous person? far from being it
77. Are relationships ever worth it? I think that yes.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on? was giving up on...
79. Currently wanting to see anyone? right now? no, but I wish to :/
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? cleaning u.u
81. Last person you cried in front of? Nuno Silva
82. Is there someone you will never forget? Joana Branco
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? Yes I do :)
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? kicking his ass (aa) (joking) I was giving him all the atention of the world course :)
85. Are you over your past? I'm just not over my mistakes cause I learned from them. all the rest is junk.
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? fuck, yes! u.u
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? again? yes
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? too late darling ;D
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? no beacause of my dad, but I leaved the house
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? kind of ahah
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? hope so..
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? yes
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? no
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? I hope yes.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? yes I WAS.
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? yeah ^^
97. Who do you have texts from? -
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? nothing, silence is the best weapon
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? nobody
101. Ever kissed under fireworks? yes
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? yes

Começo a achar tudo isto muito estranho. É verdade fazes-me feliz, mas como posso eu seguir em frente sem a tua confiança? Confiei-te as minhas mais relevantes e confidenciais histórias de vida em troca do teu apoio e tu não sabes fazer o mesmo por mim. Eu até acreditava em ti quando me dizes que são águas passadas, mas quando te envolves em meras picardias, em vez de agires e seguires de cabeça fria, fazes com que as minhas dúvidas se levantem de novo, tornando o que sinto cada vez mais inseguro. Sei que é cedo, mas já foi mais.
A cima de tudo lembra-te que me puseste em jogo, do qual eu decidi jogar de plena consciência.

Não tenho palavras. Poder-te-ia dizer para me leres as lágrimas, mas seria ridículo e não iria adiantar de nada, pois a pena é algo que apenas irá atenuar o problema sem qualquer tipo de humildade. Poderia pedir-te desculpas, mas nunca fui muito de ir atrás desse termo, para mim é mais uma daquelas tretas de etiqueta que impingiram na sociedade e que as pessoas utilizam para despachar os problemas. Já te disse uma vez, precisamos de falar, na cara, e com a máxima dedicação possível, porque de certa forma tens razão... A M e o N, o N e a M já não fazem sentido há um bom tempo, mas a bem ou a mal eu quero resolver isso, estou farta de ser um rótulo e aposto que tu também! Mas enfim, de qualquer das formas, já não devo precisar de me preocupar com isso, visto que fiz merda à grande. Confias em mim uma porrada de vezes e eu quebro tudo isso devido à minha mania de querer ser a heroína, ajudando todos os que me aparecem a frente. Daí não ter palavras para resolver mais este afastamento, porque se calhar é assim que as coisas devem continuar, porque se calhar já não fazemos mesmo sentido nenhum. Eu continuo a amar-te, independentemente de tudo o que passamos. Fizeste-me crescer imenso, mesmo sem dar conta; ensinaste-me a ouvir hip-hop (ahah), a ultrapassar os maiores dos obstáculos, a enfrentar certos assuntos com a maior das tranquilidades, a sorrir para a vida por mais vezes que ela me dei-te a baixo (...) nem sei N, sempre foste um suporte enorme para mim... Família, lembraste? Vivências que não quero que se transformem em meras memórias. És um irmão, alimentaste-me sorrisos com esperanças, gargalhadas, sonhos, parvoíces, conforto, tudo! E acredita, que se algum dia eu te dei a entender que nunca dei valor a isso, demonstrando o quanto estúpida eu sou, é porque realmente não mereço a tua amizade, mas ai lembra-te, falhar só não falha quem não faz nada, quem não vive as coisas e o momento. Queria dar um recomeço a Mariola e ao Kabulitri, bem que eles precisam ( …) mas para isso, também preciso de ti. Quando puderes estarei cá. ♥♥